She's In Denial.

17 March 2008

Enjoy my Nightmare.
Ignore the quality and all. It's the unrefined one. I gonna refine it as soon as school starts.
Come to me, if you wanna hear more.

Left`alone
3/17/2008 05:37:00 PM™

10 March 2008

My boy gave me pocket money today.

Why?? Cuz I am totally broke without a single cent with me.

Left`alone
3/10/2008 12:59:00 PM™

08 March 2008

My boy and I are planning to go Bangkok during our vacation, which is around 1st Jun. Yay. Haha

I wanna buy PSP.
My bed is here. =D

Left`alone
3/08/2008 03:41:00 PM™

07 March 2008

...
Im only here to say,

Happy 2nd mth.

Left`alone
3/07/2008 12:01:00 AM™

05 March 2008

I don’t feel good. Keep quarrelling recently. Either that or I keep feeling that I am getting scolded.
The only thing that I hope for is him to phrase his words in a nicer manner that won’t make me feel as if he’s scolding me. If I purposely make him angry.. he scold me.. then okay la. But not say I did that on purpose.. =(( Sometimes it’s only different point of view and different thinking.
And when I tell him that he can phrase in a better manner, he say next time he won’t keep saying me. But what I really want is him to say things in a better way and not keep things inside him.
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Last time when you ask me whether I can change or not, I will say I can. But after the incident on my birthday regarding my neighbour, I’m afraid of saying I can. Cuz sometimes I din’t know that that is related to what you ask me to change. Sometimes I am really careless not to realize. I don’t want you to say things like ‘That time you say you can.. Can change until you do it again. Like that is can meh’. Especially when the matter is what I din’t know that you will relate it to.
It is really really really hurting when you say that to me.
At least now I say I’ll try and I am being extra cautious and careful about what I do and what I say.. I really really think more than twice when doing every single thing.
I do mean every..
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It is really heart-aching and I feel so cold inside out...

Can we understand each other more and think more about the other party’s feeling?
Can we be more open to explanations and comments instead of denying all off?

Left`alone
3/05/2008 03:27:00 PM™

03 March 2008

Im super worried about him right now la. Cuz it has been raining and raining plenty plenty recently. And the road is still wet, the sky is still red.

But he still wanna go down to the bike shop despite me asking him to wait till the day with good weather.

I super super worried la.

='((

Left`alone
3/03/2008 09:40:00 PM™

Bought the moneyclip wallet for my boy already. Actually is not i buy one. He used his credit card to pay. But because he still owe me money, the cost of the moneyclip wallet would be deducted from the money he owe me.

So in theory, is i buy for him. Wahahahahahaha!

We've ordered the mattress and the bed frame. Will be delivered on next Saturday.

Cool la. Waiting for it to come.

Went to the career fair at Suntec today. Very disappointing. Cuz there's only like one private institution that offers Degree for Audio Engineering. And I am so unsure of whether i should continue my studies in this field. Thinking of getting advance diploma in Visual Communication, which is my second choice when Im choosing for courses after Olvls. But seem to be a waste of time ah. Like wasted 3 years in DMAT. =.= Actually I don't really like DMAT. Not the course wise but the people. HAh. Singaporean being too practical and kiasu. And ya, people who know why I am where i am now shall know the reason too. lol. Money is a problem too, for both advancing in Audio Engineering, which most probably will be overseas university, and the Visual Communication one.

Maybe I shall go get a Business Degree or something. =((

Seeing that my boy is so sure of what he wants but Im not even sure of what I CAN do in the future. Have to be more practical right now. Not say what I want is what i can do. Suddenly, I feel so useless. =((

Maybe I shall venture into other countries.

My boy did something very very very bad at Suntec's carpark.. LOL. But nvm la. We shall do more kind deeds to redeem.

And my boy bought me a Hello Kitty mug. Super nice la. Thankyou my boy, for breaking my mug and buying me that super nice Hello Kitty one. HAhahahha.

I feel like drawing Hello Kitty on my room's wall. Thinking whether HE can do it or not. LOL.

Can or not ah???

Left`alone
3/03/2008 01:45:00 AM™